Life as a Sunflower
Poem collection personally written by
Baz Kashvi
Welcome to my little corner of the internet, where words become my savior and poetry becomes my outlet. This page is a collection of my personal poems, each one created during a time when my mind was consumed by my depressive episode.It's been a 10-year journey, but it wasn't until 5 years ago, when I was clinically diagnosed by a professional psychiatrist, that I truly understood and embraced my struggle. Through each line and stanza, I pour out my emotions, feelings, and thoughts, as the words seem to speak to me and my hand dances across the page.Like many, I found solace in Rupi Kaur's work, and her own journey of pain and growth has been a constant inspiration for me to keep breathing and keep writing. So here's to empathy, understanding, and the power of poetry to heal. Thank you for being a part of this journey with me. 🌻
The Vow
written By baz kashvi
Tears of valley raining down her heart
Into the mirror
Into her reflection
Numbing her heartHer heart cold with lifeless eyes of sorrow,
Behind the curtain with nothing to lose,
To the hand of death is her comfortOn a stage, light beaming
Illuminate her, her beauty, her melodic voice
Praise praise praise crowd faces
Nothing less than perfect
Nothing but expectation, talent, throneThis voiceless voice
This tearless tear
This screamless screamStruggle with no life within
Like the moon who accepting her past, present, future
And she finally said yes to the proposal of death.Drowning with evil voice
Not the voice within,
But the gaze of judgement humanProhibited to cry, to break, to weakYou have to be strong, they said
Don’t cry, they said
Don’t die, they saidHer wondering mind, why am I here,
Lost like Alice in Delululand
With no rights and power within her palmWhat is the point of life with no control over her lifeless body?
Like a puppet with her string
Don’t cry, don't die, be strong,
Reciting those mantras like a talisman in Einstein's hand
Poisoning her mindNothing is normal,
It’s unorthodox
Everything is fauxKill those mirror
Kill the door to your soulIt’s never the demon within
It’s always the demon surrounded
Like Hansel & Gretel
With the witch as family
Life of a prison
Wity no freedom
To cry, to break, to weakJust smile, and she did
Heart aching, she smile,
World in her throat, she laughApocalypse within her mind
Endless war within her heart
Wity her choiceless choice
Like David and GoliathLife of a sunflower
With no sun to be found
Endless eclipse
With tiredlessly tired flowerWaiting for her lover
Her loyal lover, her husband called death
Waiting for him to break her free
Waiting for her sweet release
Pleading the fifth
written By baz kashvi
You are BEAUTIFUL creature,
In my eyes, Perfect
In my heart, Pure
In my mind, PiousDiving into the mirror,
Venom escape your lips
Poison your mind
Corrupt your earsI'm not enough, you said
I have nothing, you saidBut my love?
How I wish you can see your Captivating wings
Growing
Inspiring
Strong yet gentleYou are just blinded by
Your Future
Your worry
Your demon
To see the beautiful youl apologized, I fall fast and short
I apologized, l cut my wings for past
I apologized, I shrink for ghostI looked at you
Pouring your all,You’re not ordinary
You're not human
You're a tired god
Who forgot her worth.My darling,
My love,
My tomorrow,I worship your mind
I recite your name
I praise your soulI have nothing but mediocrity
alas,
Take my lungs,
Take my breath,
Take my all,
for that, I ask for your heart.I vow to my death
I vow to my life
I vow to my graveSwear to my mother
Swear to my father
Swear to my GodYou won't die of thirst
For my blood will be your wine,
You won't suffer for hunger
For my heart will be your dine,Share me your breath, my sweet
and I shall give you mineLet me inhale your exhale,
With this we'll survive underwater or
out of space
Just with our breath exchangeTake my beauty.
Take my body,
Take my heart
For that give me your lipsI'll dress to the nine
Just to make you shine
If only you can make me your mine
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